This sounds absurd? Yes, it is.
My greatest dream and wish for the future is to become an indipendent concept artist, so why would I not study art now, that I finally have convinced my family into being with me on that?
The answer might not be that simple but I will try to explain.
I have been thinking a lot about why I want to study art in the first place: on the one hand, because I want some form of degree, as most creative jobs will require that. On the other hand, because it would be fun to study.
Drawing/Designing armour is one of my favourite things
And this was exactly what caught my attention and made me question my plans: there might have been some struggles in my current studies (and there still are, because economy and multiple choice tests are my personal hell)-- but I know that I will love the kind of jobs that will be ready for me to apply to once I have finished: lots of work-opportunities where I can be outdoors, preserving wildlife, inspecting forests, even creating and organizing a national park or ressort.
Being an artist might be my number one choice after all, but the chances are very low that I will imediately be able to work at my dream-field right after I graduate. If I will ever have the chance to work in said field to begin with. I don't want this to sound pessimistic, I promise it is not - this is a thought that has been with me for quite some time now, which is why I had wanted to opt for a doule study thing, where I graduate in both art and my nature based education.
The nature thing for safety and fun
The art thing for in case an opportunity comes along where I can get my ideal job but I need a degree. And because it would be fun studying it.
Again, when I finally allowed myself to admit the above, I realized that my plan made no sense. Because actually, the only legit reason for me wanting to study art now, is because it would be a whole lot easier and entertaining for me. Fair enough, but comparing the time of studying to lifetime - well ...
Especially since an art degree is no guarantee to actually find a creative job that fits one's interests. I am a firm believer in being passionate about what you do and especially when it comes to something you might end up doing for the rest of your life, one should be completely into it.
And when it comes to the amount of opportunities finding this wonderful work; my nature-based-studies win. By far.
An old photo already but not much has changed: I am still happiest when amongst trees
So I have been thinking; why do I specifically need a University degree for art anyways? To be honest, I kind of don't even want that. It is more than sufficient to go for selected art courses in order to tackle new skills (like zBrush for instance!). Right now I of course cannot afford that, and thus my full attention is needed for economy in this semester. But maybe I will treat myself to some art education next year? There are so many exciting courses - both local and online and at one point, I will invade them.
It is so easy to sometimes to, amongst all of your dreams loose sight of the actual earth you are standing on (in my case this is quite the good comparison...^^). After I had to fight so much to finally gain approval from the two people who mean the world to me, which brought me very close to doing what I thought would be a direct path to what I wanted, ended up reminding myself, that I was doing all of this for the wrong reason.
Sometimes the direct path is not the wisest and besides, walking off your actual trail is a whole lot more exciting~
I will still pursue my artist-carreer, still be looking out for my opportunity, but I will not go to apply at the art University tomorrow.
In fact, I will put my drawings back into their folders, have some delicious icecream and then go get some sleep :)
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