[Old blog] How I deal with pre-exam-stress (not too well)

I usually would just get myself a bowl of milk-free icecream (if the anxiety is severe, I'd just skip the milk-free part, go for 'Ben and Jerry's Half Baked' and then freak out even more over the allergic reactions, calling myself a fool at least a million times) but this technique doesn't apply in this case.
But why, you may ask.
Today happens to be the last day before my two-day-sportsexam (the one I've been training for for over a year - and the one i've been hardcore-training for for almost two months - also the one I've been setting up a diet for) so nope, no icecream for me - I cannot allow myself any sort of allergy issues right now and neither can I break the chain of healthy food - not now that I've come this far -- I would regret it by tomorrow I can feel it. I have to be the best I can be and stuffing myself with icecream will not be a good idea.


Breathe...

I don't know if it's a common thing or if it's just me, but over the years I have come to the conclusion that it's actually kind of a good sign when I'm nervous. I dont know if that applies to this very situation because I feel so unprepared I want to scream, but usually I seem to work best under this kind of pressure - I almost seem to need it for exams. Which is pretty sad actually because becaue omg it is so horriblle.

I've made my most epic fails when I felt perfectly prepared, so at least this is one thing that keeps me a little calm. But still.
I'm in a mood tight now where this:

will directly lead to this:

You don't want to awake my feanorian rage would you? Good.

*sigh*

So my plans for tonight is finnishing packing the rest of my gear - weappory is already prepared, just as tomorrow's food (which turned our surprisingly tasty: couscous-rice salad with fried vegetables, herbs and a lot of avocado because I love avocado and I need nice things to cheer me up); re-newing my tapes and hoping for them to stay overnight (I always tape the night before to see if really keeps attatched because I don't want to have it pulling itself off during the exam on it's own. If if goes off though, my fury would be so strong that my rageous/hystherical screams would cause a Balrog to die. (edit: it didn't come off so at least one thing is going to be pleasing today - looking forward to do the same thing again this evening)


*hoping for the best*
*heavy breathing*

And because I've chosen Legolas for today's feelings - this is my face right now and will be my face the following 60 hours (yes, even in sleep)

Have a nice weekend ^__^
*internally screaming*